Chapter 3 Faith
Wow I just love the chapter on faith, yes it’s about belief within yourself. Your own confidence, I have spent a while building that confidence within myself after not being aware of how to build any in my youth. That was just how it was, anyway when I met my wonderful girlfriend for the first time in January this year I was so excited after our first meeting.
When I met her I got the impression that this was right, after years of searching for the right person who would accept who was as a person. Health and my burning desire to have my own kids, that did network marketing and to be married working around family. That was one thing that I had been seeking for many years, holding onto such deep within my heart.
Having many women run away when told them how serious was as would say that wanted a family of own to them. Yet deep inside knew somehow it would all come to pass. I just needed to heal to become that better person, for me also needed to understand that these were the lessons needed to learn so my own kids were not brought up the same as myself. Setting a better example than received as a child from own family.
For many years I had said to myself that was not going to be my own father, despite the pain which comes from him. Also with health issues that have kept me from working at times, mlm became my best choice in what could do. Knowing that I was in the right company, it all needed to come back to my belief within myself. I’d lost that or never had it, despite asking for help to build such and to get things going often it was done in a way that did not assist. Sometimes it actually pushed me away.
Yet when someone else believed in me, I managed to excel. These last few months during my relationship with my girlfriend I have seen my faith grow because I know she believes within me as a person that she care’s. It’s been a learning curve, however gradually over time my anxiety and stress appears to be dropping. First I had to be ready to receive her and to be ready for the relationship which now have, to no longer be as anxious with women, with sex, to see my fears going away. It has taken a while to build such.
Yet also the hard part of my own battle was being able to enjoy myself with health challenges which made some of those crazy things not doable. Anyway I had to also learn to enjoy myself with those not so crazy things, to relax and have fun that way rather than work away which did. Denying that deep inside was in deep pain and hurting from no enjoyment of own life.
I must thank my wonderful mentor Willena, yet also Michael, Ken, Shelly and Mervyn. You have all guided me to become that better stronger person, it’s taken a while and now its time to get to work and enjoy myself.
Thank you to the wonderful mental cleanse community who inspires me to become a better person,
Love
Ben Drake
Mona Vale, Sydney, NSW Australia
Personal Lesson for the mental cleanse.
Become a success in whatever you do
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